worst burnout has ever gotten

i can't drive anymore! i can barely cook for myself! i can't hold a conversation! i put a hole in the wall because i slammed my door open too hard having a meltdown on the way to work this morning and family's over for the next two weeks and there's so much christmas stuff and i need to go christmas shopping but the mall is a no go zone in december and i should have done it earlier when it was at least easier to go but i put it off till the last minute and i'm SO FUCKING TIRED. i am exhausted beyond anything i thought was possible and somehow i keep dragging my shell to work every day and i just want a break so fucking badly but my FUCKING OFFICE DOESN'T DO WINTER BREAKS, i've been going nonstop for two years i haven't even had a day off in two months and i'm absolutely losing my mind, weekend are not enough to recover anymore, every day i hope i get violently ill or that my body collapses so i can have a break and i just don't know what to do anymore!!!!!!!!