do you ever get like really hilarious episodes?

well im not even sure what to call these moments, but often after being drained mentally and physically, i slip into into these weird fucking moods. usually i just completely lock in on something incredibly random and sometimes inexplicable and im able to waste away about 10+ hours entirely focused on it without any breaks.

so last night after an eight hour shift it happened sort of. i dont remember much of it honestly, i think it started off as a stupid toilet thought, which i then tried to write down on my laptop. long story short, i ended up typing out a whole fucking thesis on the concept of referring to someone as your "opp" and what the requirements are to have that kind of dynamic with someone, but also what constitutes as a qualification and what doesnt.

honest to god i spent 15+ on this and i dont remember much of it. i attempted to read and make sense of some of it after my sister came into my room and i got to my senses, but i couldnt make any sense of it. i dont think i was alright then tho, because i wanted to finish it so badly too.

just thinking about this right now is making me laugh in disbelief, like i wouldnt know how to describe this to anyone without sounding i totally lost it, but it also is... lowkey worrying..