Really going through it..

So last monday all the other system members seem to have disappeared. I haven't heard from them or switched out in this time and it's becoming stressful..

Later last week (they had already been gone), I got the body into an accident that resulted in a severe concussion.

So now I get to deal with the missing system mates, the concussion and other injuries, and all the other stress we are having to deal with.

I'm laying in bed scared I somehow made this all up on the verge of tears of being so alone. I know I shouldn't be on my phone 3 drs have told me so..but I just dont know what to do. I'm scared and I hate the way I look and feel, nothing feels right and I'm terrified I've made up the last several years of system experiences.