MCA iba na iniisip ko kay wife.

Since this is a confession, gusto ko lang ilabas to matagal ko na kasi ito tinatago. Reminder lang I posted this not to invite perverts ok? To admins please don't remove this, I posted this hoping na makakuha ako ng words of wisdom from other people, so here is my confession I have a wife and matagal na kami, na explore na yata namin almost lahat ng sex positions, and one day I got bored na sex life namin and I started to think na ibahin ang nakagawian and push it to the extreme, until bigla ako nagkaroon ng lust thoughts of allowing my wife to be with other men, or to have my wife a sexual partner with other men. Yes, you read it right, it makes me more sexually attracted to my wife, simula niyan kung ano ano na pumapasok na idea para sa wife ko, example gusto ko siya panoorin habang ina ano siya ng dalawa o tatlong guys, grabe ang turn on ko tuwing naiisip ko.

Pero ako yung tipo ng guy na seloso laging naka bantay sa asawa, at the same time ako rin tong guy na nag iisip na ipa ano wife ko sa ibang guy, it's so conflicting and I'm so hypocrite, there is always a constant battle in my mind, hindi ko na malaman kung ano talaga ako it made me question sa pagkalalake ko. I don't wanna tell my wife about this, kasi iniingatan ko yung relationship namin at baka magulat siya sa mga dark secrets ko and I want to get rid of this thoughts and focus only her. Sa mga mag cocomment na mga blamer, sasabihin, yan kasi kakanood mo ng ano yan kaka reddit mo yan, please alam ko, and yes it's my fault no need to remind me, all I need is to heal from this.