Desperate

Sat in July last year and sat again this year Jan and failed both in the 5th quantile (so if u think u got it bad lmao). Somehow did worse the second time round even thought I felt more confident and did a lot more test questions. Honestly I haven’t stopped crying since receiving the results, feel really empty and my confidence is beyond shattered. I’m open to any and all advice. I did it with ULaw the first time and QTLS the second time. I would say I’m not like a star pupil, it takes me a while to really get stuff, anyone else similar how do you study? When should I try again or do I just forget it altogether?