All ive wanted is to be loved

How can parents have 4 children and decide they dont want the only female and just make her life hell until they kick her out at 14. Im 22 and ive accepted ill never have my parents love. But why does everyone else in the world wanna leave too. Im such a burden. I cant do anything right my existence just causes suffering. I just want someone to see me for me and love me. Not hate me. I feel so hated by everyone who “loves” me. Im just ranting now but i just cant do it. I want to jump in a car and drive and leave this earth. I cant do this anymore. I try so hard just to feel even worse.