I got harassed at a church.

Hey, I'm a teenage transgender girl. And I recently rejoined religion as I have previously left. My church which is LGBTQ accepting but we went to another church to hear the preacher and this preacher was very problematic and said Very, very bad things. And it really put me down. I really like the loving aspect of Christianity but that almost never comes up and when it does, it's immediately contradicted with something hateful. I don't know what to do. I don't know whether I should leave or keeping a progressive Christian and stay away from churches like that.

I also find it very hard to believe some of the stories Especially stories like Adam and Eve because It's scientifically proven that we evolved from ape like creatures but Adam and Eve are human.

I realized that I only came back to religion because my mom is really religious and if I'm not religious she's eventually gonna find out and get scared that I'm gonna burn in hell. I feel like I rejoined for other people and not because I wanted to. I don't know whether to keep going or just leave. I tried praying. I tried worshiping. Other Christians claim that they feel presence of the Holy Spirit. Some of them even fall down and start rolling on the floor because of Jesus's strong presence.

I just came back to religion about a week ago so my faith is very weak and I feel like it's just been destroyed. I want Follow a loving version of Christianity That makes sense. Not one that doesn't make sense and says that people like me should be stoned and that we're freaks. I Just want a religion that's accepting of people like me but I can't seem to find that.

(Yes, The preacher said that gay and trans people should be stoned and put out of their misery.) This made me feel very uncomfortable. I feel like the only reason I was able to get away with being there is because I pass as a girl

I don't know what to do. I don't know whether to stay. I don't know wheather to leave I just know that if I leave my mom will become paranoid and she will think I'll burn in hell. And what if I do burn in hell? This feels like a very risky situation. I don't know what to do. I don't know what I believe anymore. I just know a lot of the book is unbelievable but I don't wanna risk going to hell.

I've tried going back to Christianity before but it always backfires on me.

I know this post isn't very in depth a lot more happened that I didn't mention. . It's late at night where I live and I just wanna go to bed. I'll probably vent about it on the different sub tomorrow.

Edit: I'm an atheist. I'm not doing this shit anymore.

I went with other teenagers. My mom was not there so she didn't hear what the pastor said. I told her what the pastor said and she is very mad and she doesn't want me going back to that church anymore so I won't be I'm having problems telling her I'm an atheist though I feel like if I tell her she'll be scared that I'm gonna go to hell.