Why am I still busy if I suck so much

I am a slammed second year in lit, actively interviewing at plaintiff-side firms because this job has destroyed my mental health and social life. I'm constantly getting yelled at, getting anxiety attacks and missing deadlines, and having to pull all-nighters to get everything done. I would love to be written off as incompetent so I can coast on my salary while I seek other jobs. But instead, I continue to be slammed, even though everything I turn in gets ripped to shreds. When will it end??? I assume at some point I have to stop getting work if my product is so bad.