it feels like im the only one going through this....

nobody else cries themselves to sleep. not my mom, not my neighbor, nobody at school. none of my relatives, nobody in my state. nobody at all. nobody else doesnt shower for days, weeks, because they just cant get out of bed. nobody wears crocs because they just cant find themselves a pair of socks, or have the energy to tie their shoes. nobody else has scars, nobody. nobody else wears longsleeves every day, except me. sometimes i ask myself if everyone here is actually depressed, or just joins because they feel bad for me.