Did you ever make something that lasted?

I look back at all the acquaintances that I've made throughout the years. Some I had considered close friends, for a long time. But nothing ever came out of it all, you know?

Nobody wanted to rent a place together, or start a band, or build something. Really get involved and invested in life! Instead, we'd just sort of be hanging out and talking and playing, but no commitment to anything. Sometimes I'd even suggest and ask about it, but it was all shrugs. No interest.

And then people move on to the next thing. School, job, family. Gradually disappearing and changing. Finding more differences than similarities. Until a friend becomes just an acquaintance again. Eventually, not even that.

When I first went online as a kid, I remember it being such an amazing opportunity to find people and to really connect with each other. But just like offline, people online only want entertainment. Feels like I had spent years in bars/parks, and years in chats, and it's all the same. Another online community dies off, or turns into something worse; a sad ever-revolving door.

Look, I appreciate the fun I've had with people... The adventures and moments and stories... But it feels like I could've spent more time on getting something that lasts, so that when I sit down with myself - all these years later, I'd have less resentment... and more in my hands.